Showing Up

I have been writing pretty much every morning, and I feel like a mess. It’s never good enough. But I want to give myself credit for showing up to the page, because, frankly, my writing will never be good enough in my eyes. I have started to realize that trying …

My Brain is Plastic

In general, I think of myself as a pretty confident person. But every once and a while, anxiety strikes and I freeze up. It usually happens when I’m trying to do something that I consider very important, and when I am trying to do it well. And the anxiety makes …

Fear Less, Love More

Someone wise told me recently: “You are either moving toward fear; or you are moving toward love.” I like this. And what’s more, I can tell the difference. I can feel it in my body, right in the pit of my stomach. When I am moving toward fear, when I …

Homeward Bound

I went camping this weekend, in the midst of the redwoods in the northern part of the state. To tell the truth, I was not totally looking forward to it. I was stressed and anxious about a lot of different things, and I felt that I didn’t have time to …

Thoughts on Thinking

I want to think less. I really mean this: I want to ruminate less, perseverate less, analyze less, worry less. And I want to DO more. Sometimes, I believe that by THINKING REALLY HARD, I’m being productive. But this is simply not true. I’m just thinking. And, as I’ve gradually come to realize, …